an honest dieting journel

I am beautiful.

March 7, 2011 at 1:17 PM · Filed under exercise log, food log, photos

I started my morning by eating a cherry Pop Tart. I honestly didn’t even think about it, I just suddenly found myself chewing and swallowing big bites of sugary crap. And then, while checking my email, a Do-si-do (peanut butter Girl Scout cookie) made its way to my mouth. I don’t even like Do-si-dos. It was just another instance of absentminded eating. I became disgusted with myself, because I really haven’t done anything significant towards losing this baby weight in past six weeks. I vowed to really start dieting and exercising as of today.

I popped in the Summer Sander’s Prenatal Workout and did the 1st Trimester Express Workout (38 minutes of cardio, abs, stretching). The Jillian Shred workout was awesome, but I am so NOT ready for that yet. I much too out of shape. The prenatal workout was difficult enough! I plan to also do 20 minutes on the stationary bike later today.

I did good at lunchtime. I had a Healthy Choice meal, unsweetened applesauce, baby carrots, and a peanut butter granola bar. I plan on having a baked sweet potato for snack this afternoon, and homemade lasagna and garlic bread for dinner. Since I’m breastfeeding, I have a calorie allotment around 1900. I should come in about 200 calories under my budget today, if I don’t screw up. (Though I’m just guessing on my lasagna calories).

I took this photo today for a Flickr project. It just happened to be a theme requiring the use of the words “I am beautiful” in the photo. Needless to say, I don’t feel that way at the moment. But, I figured it would be good for my self esteem to at least pretend like I feel beautiful. Sometimes pretending can lead to something more real.

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STARTING OVER

February 24, 2011 at 9:13 AM · Filed under general

Obviously, there was an extended lull in my weightloss blogging. But I did have an acceptable reason: I had a baby. Getting pregnant in the middle of my weightloss successes was not exactly intentional, but was actually pretty typical for me. I always seem to get pregnant the moment I see the light at the end of the big fat tunnel. But I’m very proud to have only gained 30 pounds this time around–with each of the previous four pregnancies, I gained approximately 42 pounds.

Baby just turned one month old, and I weigh–drumroll please–exactly the same as I did the day I came home from the hospital (which ironically, is nearly the exact same weight I was stuck at for more than a year after baby #4). I do not want a repeat of my previous post-baby weightloss failure, so I’m going to start my diet blog now, rather than later. I’ll be starting off slower this time, as I don’t want an extreme weightloss regimen to affect my abundant milk supply. But I have to drop some of this weight. It’s depressing. And it doesn’t help that the man just lost about 15 pounds in his post-tonsillectomy recovery period. He looks downright skinny right now. Good for him; depressing for me. I admit, I am totally jealous. So here I go….

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The Scale: 167.0

May 12, 2010 at 8:14 AM · Filed under weigh-in

Not terribly happy with this number. I worked much harder than a pound and a half. I stayed at or under my calories every day, including over the weekend when we had our big Beerfest party. I exercised for at least 40 minutes every day (except Beerfest day). Hoping to see a slightly better number next week.

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Wednesday & Thursday

May 7, 2010 at 12:48 PM · Filed under eating out, exercise log, food log

Wednesday was good. Thursday was almost good. Really, I tried. But when the husband decides to take the family to Chuck E. Cheese for dinner, it’s hard to be good. Gah!

On Monday I had coffee (w/ creamer) and 1/2 of a [soy] bacon, egg, and cheese bagel sandwich for breakfast. For lunch, a Healthy Choice meal, blackberries, and some cherry tomatoes. For dinner, a sliver of the kids’ 5-cheese pizza, a Greek spinach salad, and applesauce. For snacks: 1/2 cup raspberry sorbet, and a 90cal Rice Krispie Treat. And for exercise: kickboxing, stretching, and the stationary bike.

Calorie Budget 1088
Food 1200
Exercise -502
Net 699
[under] 390

On Thursday, I had my coffee and a low-sugar granola bar for breakfast. For lunch I had Pumpkin Ravioli and blackberries. For snack I had one 90cal Rice Krispie Treat. And for dinner…UGH! Chuck E. Cheese. I tried to eat well. But their salad bar was gross. I had an assortment of fresh (sort of) veggies and a 1/2 cup of cottage cheese. I passed on any soda (yay, me!). But then the pizza and breadsticks came. I love Chuck E. Cheese breadsticks. Yum! I had 1/2 piece of pizza, and 2 breadsticks. But that alone was more than half my calories for the day. So I came home and did some super grumpy kickboxing. (Grumpy, because no one would leave Mom alone long enough to let her get her workout done).

Calorie Budget 1085
Food 1404
Exercise -481
Net 923
[under] 162

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kickboxing

May 6, 2010 at 6:47 AM · Filed under exercise log

I tried another new workout yesterday: a kickboxing program with Tommy Deters. From my estimates, it was about 30 minutes of hard sweaty workout, flanked by about ten minutes of stretching (there were commercial breaks, so it was hard to figure out the exact time). Afterwords, I did the stationary bike again–this time combined with some hand weights (focusing on my shoulders).

As soon as I was done working out, I could tell I had used a new set of muscle groups. My hips, for one. And the upper part of my quads. This morning, I can feel nearly every muscle in my upper and middle back. Not pain. Just some soreness. Nice. I like it. I still HATE the grunting, sweaty workout time, but I do like the feeling afterward. It makes me feel healthier. Stronger.

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Weigh-In Day!!!

May 5, 2010 at 11:56 AM · Filed under weigh-in

168.5

Yippee! Ten pounds! In just over a week. (I didn’t weigh in last Wednesday, but the weekend prior to my re-start–about ten days ago–I weighed 178.5). Approximately one pound per day! Amazing!

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Monday & Tuesday

May 5, 2010 at 11:46 AM · Filed under exercise log, food log, photos

Still doing good. I have to admit, it is easier to eat properly after sweating hard. It just seems like a waste to throw away a hard workout by eating junk. Plus, seeing the scale go down a bit each day does wonders for my will power.

On Monday, I did my 7th day of Jillian’s workout. Then, on Tuesday, my On Demand programming decided to mess with me by removing my workout from the available choices. Dammit! I really really liked her Shred program, so I went online and bought it. This way, I’ll have access to the two harder levels of it as well. So all is good. I tried another program on Tuesday, and didn’t feel quite the burn, so I added a few minutes of what I remembered doing the previous seven days. I’ll just have to make do until I get my DVD in the mail.

Calorie Budget (Monday) 1098
Food 1216
Exercise -330
Net 886
[under] 212

Calorie Budget (Tuesday) 1095
Food 969
Exercise -320
Net 649
[under] 446

For breakfast on Monday I had a banana & a low sugar Quaker chocolate chip granola bar, plus coffee (w/ creamer). Then a veggie & cheese bagel sandwich for lunch, along with iced tea and blackberries. I had exactly one homemade chocolate chip cookie for snack (because I took the time to check the calories–and was appalled at how calorie-laden they were). Then had a Healthy Choice meal (they were on sale this week, so I bought a variety) and ice tea for dinner.

On Tuesday, I split a [soy] bacon, egg, and cheese bagel with my little girl; and split a banana with my baby boy. Of course, there was also coffee and tea. At lunchtime I had a Greek salad with cucumbers and feta, some tea, and some blackberries. I treated myself to 1/2 cup of raspberry sorbet for snack. And then had a Healthy Choice tortellini meal for dinner, along with a 1/2 cup of unsweetened applesauce.

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Weekend Success

May 2, 2010 at 5:40 PM · Filed under eating out, exercise log, food log

Weekends are hard. We always end up going out to eat at least twice. But I did good! On Saturday, I sent the family out for lunch and errands and stayed home with the baby to workout, handle naptime, and eat a healthier lunch than I would have had I gone with them. I don’t think they missed me all that much. Ha!

For breakfast I had coffee & creamer, iced tea, and a spinach/tomato omlett. For lunch I had more tea, fresh blackberries, and a veggie/cheese bagel. For dinner I had a Lean Cuisine meal and a banana. And for snack I treated myself to exactly one serving of Lucky Charms. I love Lucky Charms.

Calorie Budget (Saturday) 1111
Food 1125
Exercise -427
Net 699
[under] 413

On Sunday, I woke up and had coffee/creamer for breakfast. Followed by half of a banana and a bowl of Kashi Go Lean oatmeal. Then we went to a new pizza joint for lunch. I had iced tea, a “Health Nut” salad (cucumbers, broccooli, tomatoes, pinenuts, etc), and exactly one square slice of the delicious super cheesy pizza. For snack I had another single serving of Lucky Charms and some Mother’s Milk Tea. Then, for dinner, a Healthy Choice frozen dinner.

I also managed to complete my six day in a row of my Jillian Michaels / stationary bike workout. Plus, I added 15 minutes on my stair stepper. I’m feeling really good about how hard I’m working out this week.

Calorie Budget (Sunday) 1105
Food 1264
Exercise -518
Net 747
[under] 358

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Yoplait Greek Yogurt

May 1, 2010 at 12:40 PM · Filed under exercise log, food log

My food intake today was as follows: coffee w/ creamer for breakfast, followed by iced tea. Peanut butter and celery sticks, plus a mozzarella string cheese stick for early pre-workout lunch (because I didn’t really eat anything for breakfast). Veggie & cheese bagel sandwich and more tea for post-workout lunch. Then for dinner: fresh blackberries and 1/4 of a slice (a sliver really) of some super yummy Brick Oven 5-cheese pizza. I then realized that I was way too far under my calorie budget for the day, so I tried the new Yoplait Greek Yogurt that Bob had recommended on The Biggest Loser last week. Blech! I did not like it. My teenager walked in while I was eating it and thought I’d hurt myself badly [when we were moving the sandbox earlier] because of the horrible expression on my face. I ate it though. And am hoping that the strawberry flavor tastes better. The blueberry was just too thick and kind of chalky.

Calorie Budge 1118
Food 982
Exercise 334
Net 648
[under] 470

Exercise: Day four. Ugh. Have I mentioned that my three least favorite exercise activities are jumping jacks, lunges, and push-ups. Of course, I have to do all three of these in Jillian’s workout. Again, I rounded out my minutes with the stationary bike. Didn’t get a chance to walk, so I was actually short on exercise compared to the previous three days. But I was still well under my net calories. I need to work on that. I don’t want to lose weight so quickly that my body freaks out and stops lactating. I am going to buy some Mother’s Milk tea tomorrow to help prevent that.

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Push-ups

April 30, 2010 at 6:41 AM · Filed under exercise log, food log

I hate them. Probably because I’ve never ever been able to do them. This Jillian Michaels workout I’ve been doing incorporates two rounds of push-ups. Did I mention that I hate them? No? Let me say it again: I hate push-ups. But I made it though Day Three. Yay, me!

On Day One, I had the crazy idea of making the rest of the family do the workout with me. But I cuss and grunt and whine out loud so much when I’m doing it alone, it would probably be completely embarrassing to do it in front of others, even if they are family.

Also, I have shin splints. Not sure if it’s from the jumping jacks and jump rope segments of the workout program, or from the 30 minute walks I’ve been taking the kids on every afternoon. But unlike every other time I’ve been sore from exercise, I’m working through it anyway, instead of telling myself I deserve a day to rest. (A day usually turns into two, then three, then a week).

Good eating day yesterday, too. Coffee w/ creamer for breakfast, along with almonds and half a banana. A veggie/cheese bagel sandwich for lunch, with applesauce. A greek/spinach salad for dinner. And a kiwi and a bowl of Kashi Go Lean oatmeal for snack.

Calorie Budget: 1118
Food: 1110
Exercise: -400
Net: 700
[under] 407

(I did also have two bites of a donut/danish type of thing that Niles brought home from work. Two bites. So I’m that “under” number should be slightly lower–but I’m still under).

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